Ok, so I have been told by my roomie that I need to update since I haven't done so since mid October.  She's giving me permission to not do homework and said I should take it.  There's nothing interesting or important happening in my life though my roomie has had quite the week. 

Over break I spent time reading and babysitting and that's about it.  I finished four books, three of which were about 500 pages long.  I also played lots of Zelda Twilight Princess with my brother.  That is one series of video games that I will always play but only with John.  It's our bonding time away from chores and parents.  It's also very fun.  On New Year's Eve/New Year's Day exactly at midnight we destryoed a computer, a 1990 Packard Bell, with a sledge hammer.  Tons and tons of fun.  Best New Year's ever.  It definetly beat last year's; I sat at a house by myself "babysitting".  The kid was asleep and there was nothing to do so I read a book and watched Knight's Tale then watched the ball drop by myself.  I at least got paid a LOT of money.  Over a hundred dollars for watching TV and reading which I do very well. 

Well, that's all I've got.  Boring I'm sure.  But there you go I updated. 

Currently Listening Tarzan - The Broadway Musical (Original Broadway Cast) By Original Cast Recording see related

Wow its been a while since I updated.  things are going relatively well.  I'm getting MUCH better grades this semester than I have since I've been here. Makes me happy and it will make my parents extremly excited.  Speaking of my family- they come here on FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

No really I'm not that excited about it...I'm lying can you tell?

I went to fall formal last weekend and I had a blast for the most part.  Most of the music I despised but o well I still went to a dance and danced for almost all of it.  There were some issues with dresses that definetly made the night adventure filled.  And everyone who wasn't at the dance but who has seen the pictures keeps telling me that I looked great or beautiful or something along those lines.  I guess that it must be true then huh? 

I really don't have much else to post.  Life is pretty much an unending routine which leads to very little to write about.  So byes until I find something interesting to write about.

Strange, isn't it?  Each man's life touches so many other lives.  When he isn't around he leaves an awful hole, doesn't he?

--Its a Wonderful Life

Make an impact

I love this quote.  Thank you Matt for the away message that I stole this from.

The reason for me placing this quote is that it sums up what I'm thinking about at the moment.  I went to the Well tonight and it was a wonderful experience.  During the service I realized that as time passes I get happier and happier.  I love it!!

I realized that I can make it on my own but I'd prefer not to.  All through highschool I tried making it as on my own as I could. I absolutly LOVE the fact that I have a variety of friends this year.  I still have the few friends that I can tell everything to.  I could live without these friends but I really don't want to.  These few people accept me wholly for who I am despite all my flaws and are there for me whenever I need them.  I hope that I am the same for them. 

Then there are the friends who I'm close to and talk to a good bit but we don't unload everything on one another.  I enjoy hanging out with these people because we don't run out of conversation topics and its obvious that we're friends and will keep in touch but won't be extremly close after college. 

I also have the group of hang out buddies. These people come hang out with me in the Grill or in my room or we study together.  These people and I have some things in common but we can always make each other smile. 

It is wonderful not having to hang out with the same people.  While I don't "get sick" of hanging out with people I do enjoy not having to hang out with the same people all the time.  Feeling as though you have to hang out with someone, as though it were an obligation is not cool.  It makes the "friendship" become a burden and I don't want that. 

So thanks guys for being there despite the relationship we have whether it is insanely in depth or more casual friendship.  I appreciate, adore and love you all.

this makes no sense to me...but i did get 10 the exact same as bailey. weird. we really are twins.

August 13, 2006

So it's definitely been awhile since I updated.  And since I'm not really into the whole updating thing (too much like keeping a journal which i really suck at) I have decided that I'm only going to update when something really good happens in my life.  After all, those are the best kinds of posts to read. 

So my life hasn't been that interesting lately.  I work with my mom, I work at Sakura and I babysit.  Its fun but not all that interesting.  Anyways, the reason for this update is that I am in a WONDERFUL mood.  Today something good happened that had to do with something bad that happened four years ago.  I find it amazing that I'm this happy.  I thought that I would still harbor a lot of anger and resentment for what happened but I realized today that I don't.  I let it go a while ago.  Actually I let it go the day last year when I discovered that I was truly, honestly, undeniably happy. 

Letting go of past hurts and hates is truly one of the greatest things that someone can ever do for them self.  By harboring hatred and anger you are doing the person who wronged you a service.  You aren't letting it go and thus are holding yourself back from the happiness and the good life that you have every right to live.  So do yourself a tremendous favor and let go of the hatred.  Much easier said than done I know; believe me I know.  But if you try and I mean put forth your greatest effort eventually you will be able to release all the wrongs that you have held inside your mind and that you have tied to yourself whether you meant to or not.  The wrongs done to you do not deserve a part in your everyday life no matter how small or large these wrongs were.  Instead, they deserve to be put to rest and for you to learn from them, grow because of them and move on.  Isn't that why we make mistakes?  So that we can learn from them?  I believe that the same can be said for past hurts.  While the hurts that were done to us were not in our full power to prevent still I believe that we can view these as learning experiences.  Teach and help others with what has happened to you and what you have learned as a result of what occurred in your past. 

By allowing the wrongs that were done to rest you allow yourself a freedom that wasn’t there after the hurt occurred and before you let it go.  One day there is a great chance that your path could cross with someone who committed a disservice to you.  How will you react to them?  Will you run away like a frightened child?  Will you smile at them and pretend that you have never seen them before and they never acted in a way that hurt you?  Or will you be strong and face them as a human knowing that humans commit error and will you afford them the forgiveness that was afforded to us for sins that we committed before, are committing now and will commit in the future?  I believe that the last option is best.  We are Christian and to be Christian means to follow in Christ’s footsteps.  A major aspect is forgiveness especially to those who wounded us greatly. 

I pray that all of you can somehow find in yourself the strength to forgive those who have harmed you in any way.  Once you do there is such a joy in you, a lightness where once a great weight weighed you down generally without your knowledge of it.  Be the wonderful person that you are capable of being and administer the forgiveness willingly.  It has an amazing affect.  Try it and you just might discover it for yourself.